VisualDNA Who Am I? Quiz Results

Guess who’s a Navigator? Yet, again, here is more proof on how anal I am when it comes to life. I’m a conscientious neurotic introvert. Spontaneity is not my preferred method. The fact that I am only 18% agreeable certainly says a lot. You know that one individual who tends to keep to himself, is awkward in conversation with strangers and acquaintances, and has no problem being rude with everyone (quietly, of course)? Aye! I can’t deny that the 99% neuroticism is embarrassing–far more than the 2% extraversion. I wonder if anyone else has ever had highly similar results. Well, I hope I am not the only one like this.

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More than a realist, I believe I am just a pessimist. Both don’t necessarily have to go hand-in-hand. For me, it depends. I am so emotional on the inside (you won’t receive a hug from me or “I’m so, so sorry for…” comments). Don’t emotions have a tendency to hinder the facts? I can be disturbingly driven or a perfectionist of the worst kind. It may not seem so–given my history with jobs (or lack-thereof)– but when I find anything important or interesting, then I become obsessed. I just have to work around my severe introversion.

Yes, I hate not being in control. Obviously, I run into situations where I have little to no control, and that is where my anger bursts forward. I can be considered moody because of it. So, of course, I am a perfectionist. Returning to the fact that I am a severe introvert, it does make sense that I am a homebody. Don’t worry, I do leave my cave. I just prefer to be surrounded by no more than a handful of people that I know well. I enjoy outdoor activities on my own, from time to time.

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Considering the first few traits, it is understandable that the following ones seem repetitive. I am aware that I seem distant in social situations, and that has saved me from most gossip, but it has also cost me opportunity. I am critically methodical and disciplined with specific chores, hobbies, and other actions. Anything else can crumble. Once I make a decision about life, then it does result in “strong and firm beliefs about things like society and morality.” I am vocal on those types of subjects.

I am an organizer, but I am capable of being creative. So, I disagree with part of this statement: “They like to stick to the rules of the game, but this can mean that they lack imagination and creative flair at times. You may prefer structured learning to free thinking and like to have a clear sense of the start, middle and – crucially – end of a project.” To be honest, the only way for a project to be completed, perfectly, is to be organized. Let’s not mention the countless types of artists who inhabit this planet and are incapable of showing results because there is no organization or discipline. A balance has to be found.

I am stubborn because I obviously feel I know what’s best and worst for me (and other people). It’s also true that being headstrong involves worries and fears. “If I do that, will it work?” Risk is something I avoid. That, coupled with introversion, has been my stumbling block–all of my life. I am aware that I haven’t shown any positive results in the ways that I want because of these traits. It’s humiliating and my own Godforsaken fault.

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Avoidance of people, decisions, and actions have led to a stalemate. I can’t screw up, but I can’t succeed. I’ve been thinking lately that I have most of the traits necessary to prosper among other human beings, but I am figuratively watching the toilet water swirl around in circles. This year has been one of plenty of thinking, regret, planning, and actual doing. Still, there is more to be accomplished. I need to change more, but I know that the fears and the overthinking are standing right there, behind me.

Who Am I? Quiz

I Hate Driving

The title does not lie. There is this build-up of stress inside of me right before I get in any vehicle. To be honest, I have hardly driven compared to other Americans who live in rural areas. I have heard of individuals who don’t own a vehicle, but should. They don’t seem to have the same problems whenever they have the chance to drive though.

I didn’t receive a permit until I was 17 years of age. The truth is that I failed the test twice before I finally passed. This was all within the span of about a week. My father didn’t really push me to drive. He was happy to do it for me. Yes, he drove me to school in the morning and back home. In fact, he drove me home for lunch and back. Why would I feel motivated to drive a vehicle when I had a chauffeur (more like a body guard).

Now I know why he did what he did. He was trying to keep me inexperienced and hoped I wouldn’t get into any kind of trouble. I still did, a little, but I have always been an introvert. When I did venture out, I preferred to be outside and nearby–alone. It was easy to just walk somewhere or ask my father for a ride. Of course, I was a homebody more than anything.

Most people that I know had one permit and then a license–not me. I had 3 driving permits for the span of 5 years. The only awful picture I’ve ever taken was during my second permit. That was a bad year for me, anyway.

There were a few reason why I finally had to get a driver’s license. The major one being the death of my dad in 2014. That would, of course, be the end of my free rides. Also, I had my first boyfriend who quickly became my husband. It was just time to take that step in life. I needed to replace my dad when it came to taking my mother to appointments and grocery shopping. Additionally, my husband thought I would find a job 8-25 miles away like a normal person. That didn’t actually pan out, as usual.

How was the test for the driving license? Well, I was nervous as ever. I drove around a small town, but the town (village) I’m from is smaller still. I was sweating the whole time. Obviously, I passed. I was told to be careful because I drove too close to a man walking his dog. Also, that town has mostly yield crossings, but very few of them have an actual yield sign… The lack of visible white paint at a red light caused me a slight issue. Apparently, crossing in to the opposite lane and surpassing one vehicle, while using the proper mirrors, was one of the most important aspect of passing the test. I believe I would have failed even in a large town. Forget the City.

As you can see, I am a late bloomer. Additionally, I am immature and inexperienced in so many matters. There is a pattern. Of course, after I was married I needed to get a new license. To be honest, I got lazy. I avoided doing it for several months even though it was only a matter of taking a new picture. The office just brings back the unnecessary anxiety. Also, I hate the weight section of the card. You can see my erratic weight losses and gains. I am currently 100 lbs if you are curious.

So how is my driving? I’m okay. I haven’t really been tested. The last time I drove around a large town I put a hole in the oil pan. I don’t usually talk about it. The worst was in trying to pass a semi, but getting too close. Basically, had the driver not been totally focused then we would have gone under and died. He pushed the brakes, honked, passed us, and drove on about 10 mi/hr faster than necessary. I would cause that. I can be oblivious one minute and then anal grandma the next. Regardless, I am always stressed. The fear of driving is a crutch.

Goldendoodle & Chihuahua: First Hike (Attempted)

So being who I am, I figured, “Why not take the dogs on a hike?” I know it may seem out of place to take a Chihuahua hiking, but this is the same dog who can eat a meal his very own size. Maybe that doesn’t seem to compare, but what I really mean is that Pancho is capable of behaving beyond normal. I knew Dexter would fare well, anyway.

By the way, we were camping at DeWeese Reservoir. James does not appreciate hiking as much as I. There weren’t exactly any interesting short or easy trails in Westcliffe. In the end, I chose Lake of the Clouds trail. It was supposed to be a little over 10 miles long. Honestly, I did not expect to complete it while in the company of two dogs who have never had the experience.

Our first mistake was starting for the trailhead around noon. After that, we just couldn’t find the actual trailhead until about an hour after parking. It was only a matter of going farther up. Anyway, we found a detour that led to a tiny camping area where we took a break. Dexter had his way with the creek. Pancho didn’t exactly care for it.

Eventually, we began the actual trail. I had no clue as to what time it was. There are two paths that lead to the lake, but we decided to use the one on the right. Obviously, we did not go very far. The prospect of rain, and the fact that we had all reached certain levels of tiredness and irritability, prevented us from completing the trail. We weren’t exactly planning on camping out there either.

So how did the dogs manage? There weren’t that many hikers, but they barked at a lone woman when we were ascending. Then they growled at a group during our descent. Not to mention the fact that a trio of horses being led by a man seem to bother them as we returned to the parking area. Dexter is a one-speed animal, but he does enjoy leading. Pancho barely lagged behind. He certainly tried to lead when the trail went downhill. There was some difficulty with getting over small fallen trees, but he managed. Overall, I would not hesitate to bring them along on any trail that isn’t steep (I don’t know if we’ll ever get there). Next time, I will try not to make the same mistakes. I would like to see how far Dexter and Pancho can really go.

Camping at DeWeese Reservoir

So this time around, James and I decided to take the dogs camping with us. We accompanied our friends Les and Jan to Westcliffe, Colorado. Camping at DeWeese Reservoir is actually free of charge. There are two options: the shaded pine tree area up the hill or anywhere around the lake. Les and Jan have their camper, and the lake area is better suited for that; therefore, we joined them by the lake.

No electricity or running water is provided. Several unisex restrooms can be found spread around the lake. Generators are permitted. Someone had their’s on 24/7, and it was somewhat annoying to be honest.

Of course, dogs are allowed. I’m not sure if we were expected to clean after their messes (We didn’t). Pancho (Chihuahua) and Dexter (Goldendoodle) certainly had a lot of fun.

I was the only one who didn’t fish, but the others tried. Overall, Les caught a trout by leaving the pole out overnight. Other than that, I cannot say there was any luck. As for the weather, it was the typical random mess that is Colorado. There was heat and blue skies, sprinkling, overcast, heavy winds, and cold nights–all in one day, each day. Our phones barely had one bar most of the time.

I can’t deny that the camper was convenient with all it’s amenities. We only spent the first night in our tent and the other two nights in the camper with Les and Jan. It was ridiculous considering how we struggled to move and rearrange the tent during a short wind storm. I still enjoyed my time there, but I definitely missed taking a warm shower. It’s just not the same cleaning up with a washcloth. Oh well. The dogs definitely didn’t have that issue.

Melancholy Phlegmatic Profile

I can thank Tim LaHaye for my interest in the four temperaments. This type of personality assessment is mostly popular among Christians–especially Catholics. Anyway, my personality type is Melancholy-Phlegmatic; melancholia is my dominant feature followed by the phlegmatic traits. More thoroughly, I am really a Melancholy-Phlegmatic-Choleric, but it’s more difficult to find more details on 3-blends rather than 2-blends. I located a substantial amount of information on a Christian counseling website:

General description of people who are Melancholy Phlegmatic  in Inclusion:

  1. Introvert — on the surface, he/she has a better ability to socialize than most introverts and needs more socialization than most introverts
  2. Does not initiate social interaction, but responds to a moderate degree when others initiate social interaction.
  3. Surface relationships are few and far between.
  4. Task-oriented — relates better to tasks and systems and has little understanding of people.
  5. Slow-paced — prefers working at a slow, steady pace and loses momentum as the day progresses.
  6. Needs alone time every day to think, dream and recharge his low energy reserves.
  7. Strong-minded — once his/her mind is made up, he/she has a hard time changing it.
  8. Self-motivated — will make changes or move from the present state only when his/her mind commands

Melancholy Phlegmatic  in Inclusion:
Potential strengths which should be encouraged, used and developed:

  1. “Rolls with the punches” — can deal with rejection and acceptance equally well
  2. Good mind for seeing both the end result and the pitfalls of a project which he/she has undertaken

Melancholy Phlegmatic  in Inclusion:
Potential weaknesses which should be considered and dealt with:

  1. Has a low energy reserve and tires easily
  2. Low self-esteem — constantly searches the environment to confirm this low self perception
  3. Possesses a “dry” (sarcastic) sense of humor that can be irritating to others
  4. Moody — mood swings follow thinking process

General description of people who are Melancholy Phlegmatic in Control:

  1. Independent.
  2. Expresses very little or no control over the lives and behaviors of others and will tolerate very little control imposed upon him/her by others.
  3. Will become angry if someone interferes with his independence, tries to control him/her or tell him/her what to do.
  4. Has moderate doubts about his/her ability to approach unfamiliar areas of responsibility.
  5. “Dry” sense of humor (sometimes witty, often sarcastic) is used as a defense mechanism.
  6. Requires ample time before making a decision in unknown areas.
  7. Moderate fear of the unknown (not as great as a Melancholy).

Melancholy Phlegmatic in Control:
Potential strengths which should be encouraged, used and developed:

  1. In known areas of responsibility, tends to be quite confident and capable of making decisions and taking on responsibilities.
  2. Inner directed, self-motivated.

Melancholy Phlegmatic in Control:
Potential weaknesses which should be considered and dealt with:

  1. Tends to procrastinate because of lack of confidence — procrastination is ventilated in the form of stubbornness.
  2. Becomes stubborn if someone attempts to motivate him/her by promise of reward or threat of punishment.
  3. Moderate fear of being socially exposed for being incompetent and out of control of his/her circumstances.
  4. Will become angry if made to look foolish, confronted for mistakes, or made to look like a failure — anger is ventilated by “dry” humor, sarcastic remarks
  5. Under certain circumstances, can be legalistic, rigid, stubborn and uncompromising.

General description of people who are Melancholy Phlegmatic in Affection:

  1. Expresses and wants only a moderate amount of love and affection
  2. He/she is emotionally guarded, rarely showing or saying how he/she feels — needs to learn how to show deep, tender feelings in ways others can understand
  3. The people with whom he/she chooses to have a deep relationship must make him/her feel “safe” and meet criteria which are in his/her mind
  4. Hides personal feelings behind a “dry” (sometimes witty and often sarcastic) sense of humor

Potential strengths which should be encouraged, used and developed:

  1. Faithful and loyal friend if treated properly

Potential weaknesses which should be considered and dealt with:

  1. If rejected, insulted or offended by a deep personal relationship, he/she uses his/her “dry” and “biting” sense of humor to take vengeance.
  2. Tends to be an observer of deep relationships and uses “dry” humor to avoid becoming too involved — this is a defense mechanism to protect his/her low energy level
  3. Resists affection from others because he/she has very little energy and it takes “too much” energy to respond.

Melancholy Phlegmatic In Inclusion

Affection: Melancholy Phlegmatic

Control: Melancholy Phlegmatic

Gem Lake and Lily Mountain Hikes

Let’s start off by mentioning that the Gem Lake trail from the Lumpy Ridge trailhead is free. There is no national park fee even though it is located in the Rocky Mountain National Park. This hike is considered moderate. It took about 3 hours for us to complete it, though we did spend some time making friends with the local chipmunks and took several snack and water breaks. We are more like amateur hikers in case you wondered. I just happen to be fitter with an addiction to cardio.

The Lily Mountain trail is also free since it is located in the Roosevelt National Park. Yes, you can take a dog with you. I would not deem it rational to drag along any animal other than one that is at least medium size and fit. This particular hike is considered moderate, but it is definitely challenging. I believe it took us 4 hours to complete.

The Gem Lake trail was okay, but I prefer Lily Mountain. Even though there was the small Gem Lake (more like a pond) at the end, Lily Mountain was more strenuous and exciting. I am glad my husband decided to force me to climb the large rocks to the left (the right is higher up). It made the finale of the hike worth it. So, yes, I recommend a bit of mountaineering if you have the courage to do so. I believe it made a difference.

 

 

First Time Camping Experience/2nd Wedding Anniversary in Estes Park

I must be that one American who hasn’t experienced many “American” things in life. No, I had never been camping before; therefore, my husband thought it would be a good idea to try it for our second wedding anniversary. We traveled about 4 hours away to Estes Park since that is where we were married. It made sense. Our chosen camping area was the Estes Park Campground at Mary’s Lake. Obviously, my husband had me start off easy. The campground was in the middle of Estes Park and had extra amenities.

We picked a tent spot without electricity, but it was near the restroom and showers building. It’s decent to have flushing toilets. I didn’t even mind paying $2 for a 6-minute shower each time. Let me just say that shaving is annoying. Looking back, I would have filled a bowl with water and shaved as much as possible while in the shower before turning on the shower head. Otherwise, it’s $0.25 for every extra 30 seconds of shower. The office, store, and laundry area were all within one building located at the entrance. If I remember correctly, the washer was $2 per load while the dryer was $0.25 per 7 minutes. Also, there was a tiny pool that was supposedly heated (I felt it was chilly). They even provided free drinking water.

Mary's Lake Campground
Mary’s Lake Campground

The camping spots are definitely within close range. I found humor in that. It’s almost certain that neighbors heard everything from flatulence, bickering, and sex. Altogether, the experience may not be considered real camping, but I think it’s a start. I see myself eventually backpacking for days at a time in the future–not necessarily the near future, but you know… We actually made several mistakes in forgetting a tarp, an extra cooking pot, extra blankets, my husband’s jacket, warmer pajamas for me, and several other things. Thank God for thrift stores. See the convenience in the location? I froze during the first night.

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View from inside tent

Cooking was fair enough. There was a fire pit. We traveled with our own firewood which wasn’t recommended, but we like to cut corners. I may have still preferred the small propane gas stove for certain foods. Potatoes take forever to fully cook in the fire pit. Then again that’s just me being a Millennial. Meat certainly does taste better with the smoke. We had s’mores twice, of course. I had to bring my own dairy and gluten-free crackers. It’s kind of difficult finding certain food items at many stores. I like to avoid the Safeway in Estes Park and prefer to take my introverted business to the Country Market. Anyway, it’s not too bad having to keep the cooler filled with ice. It did cost about $2 once or twice a day (It depends on the weather).

We spent our early mornings, late evenings, and nights enjoying the experience since we were out most days. It seemed like everyone else just left their tents unlocked with varying levels of belongings when they would go out. Theft isn’t an issue as far as I know. Anyway, we hiked Gem Lake trail the first day. On the second day we fished at the marina and Mary’s Lake with no luck. There was a lot of that going around. Since we fished at different locations and times, we did walk around downtown, and we visited the Estes Park Museum. We completed the Lily Mountain trail on the third day. All of these activities were free other than the one-day fishing license ($9) and the one-day parking permit at the marina ($5).

Overall, I had an enjoyable time at Estes Park. Fishing was kind of, eh, but I liked the campground, the hiking, the local history museum, and walking around the town. Other individuals may not find it such a romantic way to spend an anniversary, but I thought it was fine. It’s not like we didn’t hold hands while walking around town (we are those people). I liken hiking up a mountain, as a couple, to life’s random ascents and descents. My husband sacrificed himself so that I could have my fun. I don’t want to sound perverted, but our camping location resulted in a row of 3-4 couples in their twenties during that week. Basically, the nights were not that cold, quiet, or lonely. In the end, I would do it all again with better organization, longer hiking, and maybe with the company of our Goldendoodle. The poor Chihuahua wouldn’t make it…

Politically Left or Right-Leaning?

This isn’t exactly the most accurate of tests. I am certain that there needs to be more than 20 questions for legitimacy. The results did slightly disturb me. Many INFJ’s, and other similar types, tend to be socialist democrats or avoid politics altogether. As a teenager, I had typical INFJ feelings towards religion and politics. When I wasn’t an agnostic I did practice Wicca. My negative view of politically conservative Christians was highly stereotypical. Well, lo and behold, that is what I became several years into adulthood. I cannot say that I expected it to be so.

Honestly, I am not an extremist. I am definitely more idealistic and romantic versus realistic and factual, but I do carry a certain level of common sense. My opinions and votes only reach so far–I know. I would state that, officially, my social and fiscal convictions place me as a moderate Republican. I am definitely beyond centrist. What keeps me from being fully right-wing? Well, I am very creative, partial to a plant-based diet, would love for this planet to be free from pollution, have an addiction to grotesque forms of romance, and I am too pessimistic. Additionally, my alter-egos and preferred style choices help me stick out like a butchered thumb; there is the half-naked bohemian, not-so-innocent book nerd, and the leather and fur addicted industrial goth. (Note: I am too broke to fully embody the last one.) There is a bit of “crazy” running inside my head though.

Perhaps I am more left-leaning than I am truly capable of accepting. I can’t say, can I? Obviously I have made an enormous switch in beliefs before. I am kind of afraid of those types of changes, but I am known for that sort of behavior. Does that mean I actually am an extremist then?

Political Left / Right Test

Helen Fisher’s Personality Test

I took another online quiz. Apparently, Helen Fisher is a biological anthropologist and works at the Kinsey Institute. Well, there are 12 combination results (a primary and secondary). I do wonder if she wasn’t inspired by Myers-Briggs. My test result was Negotiator/Builder.

Your Primary personality Type is Negotiator.

NEGOTIATORS are philosophers. These women (and men) express traits linked with the estrogen system in the brain. These people see the big picture. They are imaginative and intuitive. They have superb language and people skills. They are also emotionally expressive, as well as agreeable, trusting and compassionate. Negotiators seek someone with whom they can make an intensely intimate, deeply meaningful, inspiring and spiritual connection. But Negotiators, like Directors, prefer to go out with one person at a time and to explore the depths of this potential partnership. They dislike wasting time on irrelevant, trivial or boring socializing. When they find “The One,” Negotiators are superb at generating and maintaining intimacy with this partner. They avoid conflicts with a mate, and make major personal adjustments to strengthen this cherished bond. They give thoughtful gifts, such as a treasured book or photograph. They share their most personal feelings. And they want their partner to share his or her feelings too.

Negotiators are often attracted to their opposite, Directors.

I believe I am too immature to be completely compassionate and agreeable. Also, I am somewhat willing to create conflict with the people I love. My usual habit of running away is definitely a way to avoid conflict. All else is true for me though.

Your Secondary personality type is Builder.

BUILDERS are pillars of society. Most likely highly expressive of the serotonin system in the brain, they are traditional and conventional, as well as cautious, calm and often social. These men and women like to build networks; community and family are important to them. They make good managers because they are orderly, conscientious, thorough and loyal. And they respect rules and like schedules. Builders seek a stable and predictable team player, someone who shares their fidelity to family and tradition. They take courtship seriously, too. Builders don’t choose a partner impulsively. They believe in good manners, old-fashioned courtesy, punctuality and well-arranged schedules. Builders tend to think concretely; they are literal; they like and trust facts. So on a date, a Builder is likely to engage in tangible conversations – about food, travel, sports, the weather, TV programs and/or movies. They are often good at “small talk,” short conversations on concrete topics. They can be very modest when discussing their achievements. And they tend to take the opinions of their friends and relatives seriously.

Honestly, I am not social. I am outwardly calm around most, but secretly dying on the inside. Just because I am a perfectionist does not equal great management skills. I certainly cannot stand small talk, and I can partake in abstract topics. The rest sounds accurate.

There was a section that explained relationship combinations, but apparently a Negotiator/Builder doesn’t exist. It may be that a Builder primary with a Negotiator secondary is more common. Besides, I would have to force my husband to take the quiz. I don’t believe my result sounds like an INFJ or a 4w5. Perhaps a Negotiator primary with an Explorer secondary would be the equivalent.

Source: Helen Fisher’s Personality Test

 

Lonerwolf Enneagram Test

Well, I took another random test as usual. I already know that I am a 4w5 based off other random tests that exist on the Internet. I found the percentages to be interesting.

TYPE 4: THE INDIVIDUALIST (OR ROMANTIC)
Ego Fixation: Melancholy

Holy Idea: Origin

Basic Fear: They have no identity or personal significance

Motivations: To find themselves and their significance

Virtue To Learn: Equanimity (Emotional Balance)
The Holy Idea of “Origin” is to do with the understanding that everything derives from our Soul, or source of consciousness. The distortion here occurs when our personality or ego is searching outside of itself for an “Origin” and in doing so, romanticizes a quest for the “holy grail” that never quite seems to be attainable.
The Individualist is usually a self-aware, sensitive, and reserved person. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. The Individualist has a tendency to withdraw from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, and often feels disdain for ordinary ways of living. This type of person typically has problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity.
The main obstacle for The Individualist is that they believe themselves to be “special” as a result of their longing for the origin of everything, or their perpetual search for that which will finally complete them (think of the stereotypical poet).
This defense mechanism of feeling “more special than others” can often be rooted in feelings of abandonment in early years (either physical or emotional) resulting in doubts of self-worth. In later years this results in the desire to compensate for these feelings of inadequacy by becoming important in some way.
Examples: Edgar Allen Poe, Anne Rice, Virginia Woolf, Jackie Kennedy Onassis, Pyotr I Tchaikovsky, Johnny Depp.
TYPE 1: THE PERFECTIONIST (REFORMER)
Ego Fixation: Resentment

Holy Idea: Perfection

Basic Fear: Being corrupted, imbalanced, being bad

Motivations: Being right, improving everything, consistency, avoiding criticism.

Virtue to Learn: Serenity
The primary point of fixation of this personality is the “Holy Idea” of Perfection. Holy Perfection is the notion that everything is perfect as it is and nothing needs to change.

However, the Perfectionist’s personality distorts this understanding and forms comparative judgments, believing that some things are “more right” than others. This is true on the subjective level of the ego personality, but not on the absolute level of the Holy Ideas.
For this reason The Perfectionist tends to resent external reality as it often fails to live up to their ideals. The Perfectionist is often conscientious and ethical, with a strong sense of right and wrong, and makes an excellent teacher, crusader and advocate for change, always striving to improve the world. At the core of The Perfectionist is the fear of making mistakes because the resentment they direct towards the world is often redirected to themselves.
Examples: Confucius, Plato, Joan of Arc, Mahatma Gandhi, Nelson Mandela, Margaret Thatcher.
TYPE 5: THE OBSERVER (OR INVESTIGATOR)
Ego Fixation: Stinginess

Holy Idea: Omniscience

Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable

Motivations: Wanting to possess knowledge, desiring to understand the environment, needing to have everything figured out

Virtue To Learn: Non-Attachment
The Holy Idea of “Omniscience” refers to the profound notion of diversity within unity—of not just seeing the whole forest, but craving to observe the intricacy of every single detail within it. Omniscience can be likened to the desire to have “God’s knowledge.”
The Observer tends to believe that they are deeply separated from existence; disconnected, isolated, not part of the details of the Whole. Accordingly, The Observer sets about observing life with stingy involvement; with minimal participation, minimizing personal interactions, and even actively hides away from reality.
The Observer’s inner solitude is the key element behind their ability to be alert, insightful, and curious, often developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, The Observer can also sometimes get wound up in their abstract thoughts and imaginary constructs. It is not uncommon for The Observer to become detached, yet high-strung, and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation.
Examples: Albert Einstein, Vincent van Gogh, Friedrich Nietzsche, Emily Dickinson, Agatha Christie, Salvador Dali, Bill Gates.

I cannot be a 4w1, can I? Otherwise, I am still just your everyday 4w5. I do see myself as a type 1, but even more so as a 4.

Source: Enneagram Test