VisualDNA Who Am I? Quiz Results

Guess who’s a Navigator? Yet, again, here is more proof on how anal I am when it comes to life. I’m a conscientious neurotic introvert. Spontaneity is not my preferred method. The fact that I am only 18% agreeable certainly says a lot. You know that one individual who tends to keep to himself, is awkward in conversation with strangers and acquaintances, and has no problem being rude with everyone (quietly, of course)? Aye! I can’t deny that the 99% neuroticism is embarrassing–far more than the 2% extraversion. I wonder if anyone else has ever had highly similar results. Well, I hope I am not the only one like this.

1

More than a realist, I believe I am just a pessimist. Both don’t necessarily have to go hand-in-hand. For me, it depends. I am so emotional on the inside (you won’t receive a hug from me or “I’m so, so sorry for…” comments). Don’t emotions have a tendency to hinder the facts? I can be disturbingly driven or a perfectionist of the worst kind. It may not seem so–given my history with jobs (or lack-thereof)– but when I find anything important or interesting, then I become obsessed. I just have to work around my severe introversion.

Yes, I hate not being in control. Obviously, I run into situations where I have little to no control, and that is where my anger bursts forward. I can be considered moody because of it. So, of course, I am a perfectionist. Returning to the fact that I am a severe introvert, it does make sense that I am a homebody. Don’t worry, I do leave my cave. I just prefer to be surrounded by no more than a handful of people that I know well. I enjoy outdoor activities on my own, from time to time.

2

Considering the first few traits, it is understandable that the following ones seem repetitive. I am aware that I seem distant in social situations, and that has saved me from most gossip, but it has also cost me opportunity. I am critically methodical and disciplined with specific chores, hobbies, and other actions. Anything else can crumble. Once I make a decision about life, then it does result in “strong and firm beliefs about things like society and morality.” I am vocal on those types of subjects.

I am an organizer, but I am capable of being creative. So, I disagree with part of this statement: “They like to stick to the rules of the game, but this can mean that they lack imagination and creative flair at times. You may prefer structured learning to free thinking and like to have a clear sense of the start, middle and – crucially – end of a project.” To be honest, the only way for a project to be completed, perfectly, is to be organized. Let’s not mention the countless types of artists who inhabit this planet and are incapable of showing results because there is no organization or discipline. A balance has to be found.

I am stubborn because I obviously feel I know what’s best and worst for me (and other people). It’s also true that being headstrong involves worries and fears. “If I do that, will it work?” Risk is something I avoid. That, coupled with introversion, has been my stumbling block–all of my life. I am aware that I haven’t shown any positive results in the ways that I want because of these traits. It’s humiliating and my own Godforsaken fault.

3

Avoidance of people, decisions, and actions have led to a stalemate. I can’t screw up, but I can’t succeed. I’ve been thinking lately that I have most of the traits necessary to prosper among other human beings, but I am figuratively watching the toilet water swirl around in circles. This year has been one of plenty of thinking, regret, planning, and actual doing. Still, there is more to be accomplished. I need to change more, but I know that the fears and the overthinking are standing right there, behind me.

Who Am I? Quiz

Camping at DeWeese Reservoir

So this time around, James and I decided to take the dogs camping with us. We accompanied our friends Les and Jan to Westcliffe, Colorado. Camping at DeWeese Reservoir is actually free of charge. There are two options: the shaded pine tree area up the hill or anywhere around the lake. Les and Jan have their camper, and the lake area is better suited for that; therefore, we joined them by the lake.

No electricity or running water is provided. Several unisex restrooms can be found spread around the lake. Generators are permitted. Someone had their’s on 24/7, and it was somewhat annoying to be honest.

Of course, dogs are allowed. I’m not sure if we were expected to clean after their messes (We didn’t). Pancho (Chihuahua) and Dexter (Goldendoodle) certainly had a lot of fun.

I was the only one who didn’t fish, but the others tried. Overall, Les caught a trout by leaving the pole out overnight. Other than that, I cannot say there was any luck. As for the weather, it was the typical random mess that is Colorado. There was heat and blue skies, sprinkling, overcast, heavy winds, and cold nights–all in one day, each day. Our phones barely had one bar most of the time.

I can’t deny that the camper was convenient with all it’s amenities. We only spent the first night in our tent and the other two nights in the camper with Les and Jan. It was ridiculous considering how we struggled to move and rearrange the tent during a short wind storm. I still enjoyed my time there, but I definitely missed taking a warm shower. It’s just not the same cleaning up with a washcloth. Oh well. The dogs definitely didn’t have that issue.

First Time Camping Experience/2nd Wedding Anniversary in Estes Park

I must be that one American who hasn’t experienced many “American” things in life. No, I had never been camping before; therefore, my husband thought it would be a good idea to try it for our second wedding anniversary. We traveled about 4 hours away to Estes Park since that is where we were married. It made sense. Our chosen camping area was the Estes Park Campground at Mary’s Lake. Obviously, my husband had me start off easy. The campground was in the middle of Estes Park and had extra amenities.

We picked a tent spot without electricity, but it was near the restroom and showers building. It’s decent to have flushing toilets. I didn’t even mind paying $2 for a 6-minute shower each time. Let me just say that shaving is annoying. Looking back, I would have filled a bowl with water and shaved as much as possible while in the shower before turning on the shower head. Otherwise, it’s $0.25 for every extra 30 seconds of shower. The office, store, and laundry area were all within one building located at the entrance. If I remember correctly, the washer was $2 per load while the dryer was $0.25 per 7 minutes. Also, there was a tiny pool that was supposedly heated (I felt it was chilly). They even provided free drinking water.

Mary's Lake Campground
Mary’s Lake Campground

The camping spots are definitely within close range. I found humor in that. It’s almost certain that neighbors heard everything from flatulence, bickering, and sex. Altogether, the experience may not be considered real camping, but I think it’s a start. I see myself eventually backpacking for days at a time in the future–not necessarily the near future, but you know… We actually made several mistakes in forgetting a tarp, an extra cooking pot, extra blankets, my husband’s jacket, warmer pajamas for me, and several other things. Thank God for thrift stores. See the convenience in the location? I froze during the first night.

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View from inside tent

Cooking was fair enough. There was a fire pit. We traveled with our own firewood which wasn’t recommended, but we like to cut corners. I may have still preferred the small propane gas stove for certain foods. Potatoes take forever to fully cook in the fire pit. Then again that’s just me being a Millennial. Meat certainly does taste better with the smoke. We had s’mores twice, of course. I had to bring my own dairy and gluten-free crackers. It’s kind of difficult finding certain food items at many stores. I like to avoid the Safeway in Estes Park and prefer to take my introverted business to the Country Market. Anyway, it’s not too bad having to keep the cooler filled with ice. It did cost about $2 once or twice a day (It depends on the weather).

We spent our early mornings, late evenings, and nights enjoying the experience since we were out most days. It seemed like everyone else just left their tents unlocked with varying levels of belongings when they would go out. Theft isn’t an issue as far as I know. Anyway, we hiked Gem Lake trail the first day. On the second day we fished at the marina and Mary’s Lake with no luck. There was a lot of that going around. Since we fished at different locations and times, we did walk around downtown, and we visited the Estes Park Museum. We completed the Lily Mountain trail on the third day. All of these activities were free other than the one-day fishing license ($9) and the one-day parking permit at the marina ($5).

Overall, I had an enjoyable time at Estes Park. Fishing was kind of, eh, but I liked the campground, the hiking, the local history museum, and walking around the town. Other individuals may not find it such a romantic way to spend an anniversary, but I thought it was fine. It’s not like we didn’t hold hands while walking around town (we are those people). I liken hiking up a mountain, as a couple, to life’s random ascents and descents. My husband sacrificed himself so that I could have my fun. I don’t want to sound perverted, but our camping location resulted in a row of 3-4 couples in their twenties during that week. Basically, the nights were not that cold, quiet, or lonely. In the end, I would do it all again with better organization, longer hiking, and maybe with the company of our Goldendoodle. The poor Chihuahua wouldn’t make it…

Helen Fisher’s Personality Test

I took another online quiz. Apparently, Helen Fisher is a biological anthropologist and works at the Kinsey Institute. Well, there are 12 combination results (a primary and secondary). I do wonder if she wasn’t inspired by Myers-Briggs. My test result was Negotiator/Builder.

Your Primary personality Type is Negotiator.

NEGOTIATORS are philosophers. These women (and men) express traits linked with the estrogen system in the brain. These people see the big picture. They are imaginative and intuitive. They have superb language and people skills. They are also emotionally expressive, as well as agreeable, trusting and compassionate. Negotiators seek someone with whom they can make an intensely intimate, deeply meaningful, inspiring and spiritual connection. But Negotiators, like Directors, prefer to go out with one person at a time and to explore the depths of this potential partnership. They dislike wasting time on irrelevant, trivial or boring socializing. When they find “The One,” Negotiators are superb at generating and maintaining intimacy with this partner. They avoid conflicts with a mate, and make major personal adjustments to strengthen this cherished bond. They give thoughtful gifts, such as a treasured book or photograph. They share their most personal feelings. And they want their partner to share his or her feelings too.

Negotiators are often attracted to their opposite, Directors.

I believe I am too immature to be completely compassionate and agreeable. Also, I am somewhat willing to create conflict with the people I love. My usual habit of running away is definitely a way to avoid conflict. All else is true for me though.

Your Secondary personality type is Builder.

BUILDERS are pillars of society. Most likely highly expressive of the serotonin system in the brain, they are traditional and conventional, as well as cautious, calm and often social. These men and women like to build networks; community and family are important to them. They make good managers because they are orderly, conscientious, thorough and loyal. And they respect rules and like schedules. Builders seek a stable and predictable team player, someone who shares their fidelity to family and tradition. They take courtship seriously, too. Builders don’t choose a partner impulsively. They believe in good manners, old-fashioned courtesy, punctuality and well-arranged schedules. Builders tend to think concretely; they are literal; they like and trust facts. So on a date, a Builder is likely to engage in tangible conversations – about food, travel, sports, the weather, TV programs and/or movies. They are often good at “small talk,” short conversations on concrete topics. They can be very modest when discussing their achievements. And they tend to take the opinions of their friends and relatives seriously.

Honestly, I am not social. I am outwardly calm around most, but secretly dying on the inside. Just because I am a perfectionist does not equal great management skills. I certainly cannot stand small talk, and I can partake in abstract topics. The rest sounds accurate.

There was a section that explained relationship combinations, but apparently a Negotiator/Builder doesn’t exist. It may be that a Builder primary with a Negotiator secondary is more common. Besides, I would have to force my husband to take the quiz. I don’t believe my result sounds like an INFJ or a 4w5. Perhaps a Negotiator primary with an Explorer secondary would be the equivalent.

Source: Helen Fisher’s Personality Test

 

Lonerwolf Enneagram Test

Well, I took another random test as usual. I already know that I am a 4w5 based off other random tests that exist on the Internet. I found the percentages to be interesting.

TYPE 4: THE INDIVIDUALIST (OR ROMANTIC)
Ego Fixation: Melancholy

Holy Idea: Origin

Basic Fear: They have no identity or personal significance

Motivations: To find themselves and their significance

Virtue To Learn: Equanimity (Emotional Balance)
The Holy Idea of “Origin” is to do with the understanding that everything derives from our Soul, or source of consciousness. The distortion here occurs when our personality or ego is searching outside of itself for an “Origin” and in doing so, romanticizes a quest for the “holy grail” that never quite seems to be attainable.
The Individualist is usually a self-aware, sensitive, and reserved person. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. The Individualist has a tendency to withdraw from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, and often feels disdain for ordinary ways of living. This type of person typically has problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity.
The main obstacle for The Individualist is that they believe themselves to be “special” as a result of their longing for the origin of everything, or their perpetual search for that which will finally complete them (think of the stereotypical poet).
This defense mechanism of feeling “more special than others” can often be rooted in feelings of abandonment in early years (either physical or emotional) resulting in doubts of self-worth. In later years this results in the desire to compensate for these feelings of inadequacy by becoming important in some way.
Examples: Edgar Allen Poe, Anne Rice, Virginia Woolf, Jackie Kennedy Onassis, Pyotr I Tchaikovsky, Johnny Depp.
TYPE 1: THE PERFECTIONIST (REFORMER)
Ego Fixation: Resentment

Holy Idea: Perfection

Basic Fear: Being corrupted, imbalanced, being bad

Motivations: Being right, improving everything, consistency, avoiding criticism.

Virtue to Learn: Serenity
The primary point of fixation of this personality is the “Holy Idea” of Perfection. Holy Perfection is the notion that everything is perfect as it is and nothing needs to change.

However, the Perfectionist’s personality distorts this understanding and forms comparative judgments, believing that some things are “more right” than others. This is true on the subjective level of the ego personality, but not on the absolute level of the Holy Ideas.
For this reason The Perfectionist tends to resent external reality as it often fails to live up to their ideals. The Perfectionist is often conscientious and ethical, with a strong sense of right and wrong, and makes an excellent teacher, crusader and advocate for change, always striving to improve the world. At the core of The Perfectionist is the fear of making mistakes because the resentment they direct towards the world is often redirected to themselves.
Examples: Confucius, Plato, Joan of Arc, Mahatma Gandhi, Nelson Mandela, Margaret Thatcher.
TYPE 5: THE OBSERVER (OR INVESTIGATOR)
Ego Fixation: Stinginess

Holy Idea: Omniscience

Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable

Motivations: Wanting to possess knowledge, desiring to understand the environment, needing to have everything figured out

Virtue To Learn: Non-Attachment
The Holy Idea of “Omniscience” refers to the profound notion of diversity within unity—of not just seeing the whole forest, but craving to observe the intricacy of every single detail within it. Omniscience can be likened to the desire to have “God’s knowledge.”
The Observer tends to believe that they are deeply separated from existence; disconnected, isolated, not part of the details of the Whole. Accordingly, The Observer sets about observing life with stingy involvement; with minimal participation, minimizing personal interactions, and even actively hides away from reality.
The Observer’s inner solitude is the key element behind their ability to be alert, insightful, and curious, often developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, The Observer can also sometimes get wound up in their abstract thoughts and imaginary constructs. It is not uncommon for The Observer to become detached, yet high-strung, and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation.
Examples: Albert Einstein, Vincent van Gogh, Friedrich Nietzsche, Emily Dickinson, Agatha Christie, Salvador Dali, Bill Gates.

I cannot be a 4w1, can I? Otherwise, I am still just your everyday 4w5. I do see myself as a type 1, but even more so as a 4.

Source: Enneagram Test